i found my soulmate about a year ago, by the way.

i’m alive

& i am so different (yet, much the same) than the girl that was here before ///

Feeling like the world is against me today.

Things would probably be better if I were dead.

I dont think I see a future for myself anymore.

So, I think I’m going to try an edited version of a capsule wardrobe. I don’t spend tons of money on clothes each month (if at all, really.) BUT I have SO many clothes that are several years old and doing my laundry has just become such a hassale. I also hate all the clutter.

I started to shop at Plato’s closet to get more clothes for a much cheaper price, but now I am realizing that a lot of those pieces go unworn. And I don’t really take good care of them either. So, I’ve started to clear my closet. 

I am also going to start selling my pieces on Poshmark. Maybe I’ll even try thrift flipping. Who knows.

Go to college they said

It’s the only way to make a decent living they said

*is $140,000 in student loan debt and will never be able to pay it off*

I just spent about 5 hours or so writing a single cover letter to one of my dream firms. Was it good? I don’t even know.

I’m mentally exhausted. Ugh. Cover letters will be the death of me.

So I was tagged by @wastelandhero101​ to put the first 10 songs I get when I put my music on shuffle. This is from my “Songs” playlist on Spotify. I may have cheated, but this playlist is HUGE because it goes back from forever ago.

1. The Wolves // Ben Howard
   
2. Funeral Dress // William Fitzsimmons //
   
3. Long Days // I Will, I Swear
   
4. Timshel // Mumford & Sons
   
5. Helplessness Blues // Fleet Foxes
   
6. Holocene // Bon Iver
   
7. Breathe // Seeb, Neev
   
8. Angels // The xx
   
9. Atlas Hands // Benjamin Francis Leftwich
   
10. Wicked Games //  The Weeknd
    

And to tag whoever might enjoy this possibly (tbh I just went off of recent notes): @everylovestoryisagh0ststory​ @boobie–miles​ @searchthedarknesswithin​ @ratswillfeast​ @setheverman​ @lifeingreys​